Sinead O’Connor Discusses Suicidal Thoughts

Last week Sinead O’Connor publicly poured her heart out on Twitter, confessing that she was feeling suicidal and that she wished she could die without her kids finding out.  She has since said that the tweets were a cry for help and that she’s going to be OK.

The Irish singer/songwriter sent out a number of tweets about suicide Sept. 14 following an appointment with her psychiatrist. O’Connor explained she was she devastated after the psychiatrist told her she was “a bad mum and mental for talking so openly about sex in public,” a reference to her recent online musings on sex and explicit requests to find a lover.

“So now I wish suicide [would] kill me. All this shit we’re not supposed to say. Including suicidal feelings, sex, etc [You] just get treated like a crazy person. I want to go to heaven SO bad. Have for [years]. But I don’t wanna abandon my kids. But if I [could] die without them knowing I did it myself I [would].”

On Saturday O’Connor posted an open letter to further discuss her thoughts on suicide. The singer wrote that she believes suicide is a sin, but noted that it’s OK to feel suicidal.

“That is most definitely neither a sin nor a sign necessarily, of madness,” O’Connor said. “It’s quite normal to feel that way sometimes. And it’s not only ok but MANDATORY u SAY when u feel suicidal and ask for help. … People who express suicidal feelings are least likely to act on them.”

She ended the post by asking her fans to email her information about suicidal support services in Ireland.

The next day O’Connor posted another lengthy piece about suicide on her blog, noting it was this week’s un-cut version of the article she wrote for the Irish Sunday Independent.

“I’m not dead. Nor will I be til God gets me. … The reason I am not nor will be dead by my own hand, is that I say when I feel suicidal,” O’ Connor wrote.

“There is no shame in feeling suicidal. Nor in anyone knowing that wave passes over you sometimes.  No one should be judged badly for however it is they choose to make their cry of help.

“I am not at all sorry that I wrote what I did on Twitter. It was a cry for help and help was received. So it was worth it. I have no shame around the fact that I can be shot into suicidal feelings by certain people’s treatment of me. I am no different to any other person, I therefore act as I believe any other person should be free to.”

Things are now looking up for O’Connor. Earlier today she announced on Twitter that she had recently kissed a man, noting that he was lovely, sweet and “sexelicious.”  

“I have a beard rash!! Yaaay!!!! I finally got kissed!!!! (Amongst other unmentionable but equally delicious things!) My lips remember what they’re for!!! Hurray!! Am girl again! … Thank u God. I love you.”

Click here for Sinead O’Connor’s website and here for her Twitter page.